Beautifully Broken

"He has made everything beautiful in its time." -Ecclesiastes 3:11

God you are and forever will be

The absolute only beautiful part of me

Without you I’m nothing

I’m broken, I’m lost

Only you can restore me

Only you can bring me back into your ‘Bet Av’

I don’t like who I am

Especially without you

Feeling useless and hollow

I’ve run out of breath

From racing to get somewhere

You don’t want me to be

So I try to hide myself away

I’m too afraid to reveal it

That I’m really worn, tired, and feeling aimless

But trapped in my own world

Deceiving thoughts won’t let me escape it

I think anything and everything, to keep me from feeling defeated

But all this time deep in my heart

I’ve always known the real truth

It is the beauty of Grace

The beauty of the cross

The beauty of God

That gives me worth, hope, and freedom

I believe in this hope

I can actually sense it

But there are still a few shattered thoughts,

Wreaking havoc on this hopeful mindset

Even if they aren’t true

These thoughts still trap in the darkness:

“You’re too broken

You’re too flawed

Not to mention all those scars

You’re useless

You’re a mess

And you think God can make something of that?”

When those thoughts break in, God only speaks louder

He tells me the opposite, He shouts away my weaknesses

“You’re never too broken or flawed or a mess

And those scars show something beautiful

They show healing and hope and aliveness”

I see there is hope

 Something better around the corner

I sense a new beginning

So create in me a new heart

Heal my wounds, but leave the scars

I want to remember what it was like to be lost

Reach out your hand

Pick me up out of this place

Open my eyes to your goodness

For I long to see

I’m no longer just broken
I’m beautifully broken, healed, and free